Jus realise tt things happening all around me, past n present, are fake. Wif exceptions of my bro, mum n alexanderians. These things may appear nice, friendly or gud but they are all unrealistic n have ulterior motives behind. They seem n feel real but are not.

Life is slowly getting meaningless. NO one understands me. Scarstic remarks are all over.Feeling left out,feeling ostracised,feeling out of place.
In sec sch i got no ppl to confide into,i got no ppl to trust to keep my secrets. In pri sch at least i had friends who shared e same likes as me but now in sec sch oni ppl lky jia ming can i oni communicate well wif
i don think i can take tis type of life anymore i just don feel tt i belong anywhere other thn wif my those closest friends

found out tt i did not post for quite some time le:D
much things have happened during e past few weeks at last my stupid brother went overseas thn now can use com....YAYE!!!
had muster parade yesterday damn boring for us a cos e thing we got was like damn useless halfway through e parade aliffrin fainted:( feel bad for him
nth say le so...........

Tuesday went Clementi Sports Hall at 2 to play first match against Hua Yi Sec lost to them by 1 point 25-26
today went CSH at 1 played second match against Jurong West Sec lost by 18 points 23-41 after tt went eat wif Eugene, Kah Seng, Alvin, Zhi Yuan, Zhen Hao and Joshua thn went back to CSH c Unity Sec play wif Bukit Batok Sec. BBS totally kena trashed 121-12! WTF!

Holidays are so freaking boring
sian tmr have NP training n basketball training dk which to go :( think tt e prob wif having 2 ccas think i most probably go for bball cos need collect my jersey :) thn tues tournament starting le die sure die de haiz don care la hope tmr coach don lj us let us have more water breaks ^_^ ending post here need continue on my HEYmath

Yesterday went to bukit batok sec to play friendly. Was suppose to meet e rest of e C Division players at Clementi. But i was like freaking late they told me to go West mall find them went there all of them were eat at BK i was like WTF la make me rush like mad. Thn took bus there we were like stupid sia e bus stop in front of e sch thn we still ask e bus driver where e sch.......
Thn match started around third quarter halfway sort of hurt my ankle got subbed. Went to wear ankle support. Fourth quarter started think i gone crazy or wad suddenly played very rough without even noticing it. Thn i sort of always elbowed, kneed someone or fouled someone went doing fast breaks n rebounds. Aiman got hit in e stomach. I sort of starting to get more rough. Nicholas n 1 opponent was like lying on e floor. I went super crazy n pulled e ball from tt guy swinging my elbow very hard hitting quite a few ppl. Sry!!!!!!! But in e end was like won all e teams there :) hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!

Today just returned from unit camp it was quite fun overrall oni tt e time for activities quite short had lots of fun in my group especially wif Kenneth,Karul,Nicholas all like freaking horny sia thn during camp fire made e mascot have boobs thn did 'i ask my love' cheer Zach was like idiotic sia went to pull a girl up from Guides
tis few days had quite little sleep my eye was bloodshot brought rations home but we sort of shared it among e squad ppl thn went home le yaye
CTNPCC Rockz

Sianz i really don think tt holidays r holidays except for e fact tt u no need to listen to lectures whole day
Think tt my leg really going to break after tis holiday. Tmr got unit camp to Sunday, Mon wed fri need go for bball training on mon oso need ownself go Bukit Batok sec sch for match dk how go there sia may meet Jarrel n Aiman to go three togther
N btw bought a new bball shoe if don buy ltr coach kao pei abt us not wearing it
I think tis is e first post tt i ever used so much punctuations hehe

tis few days having bball matches NP training n trests think tt tis month should be e busiest of all months
today in pe ran 4 rounds broke my old record of 7/6 mins like tt ran for 5.56 min so happy thn went for photo taking was like WTF when ms iris ng down there kao pei about us being late went d&t class go in ms iris ng agiain there kao bu bout e girls skirt n hair thn direct had e test after collecting e papers xuming down there talk cock wif audrey thn make whole class stay for recess thn got our trest papers landed in e rubbish bin thn after sch went mark hse after tt went home

today sch quite bo liao thn till chi period ms liew suddenly say mdm wan going back china thn she came in took photo wif us thn made greeting cards for her after tt went mos burger wif mark c so many ppl there thn went kfc makan there saw fion n ppl from 1c1 n 1b1 thn we called ivy when she is just like next to us oni next went NP training plaed games on impressions thn on my paper got lots of ppl say i wad tall serious n loud voice thn went to back of block E there do drills thn e sgt n CI was like teaching wad we were doing for e past few trainings near to e end they taught our squad how do turns at halt thn i was like kkkk thn others were like shit blur after ttt went home le

today in NP had PT was like quite fun having PT as a whole unit had to do jumping jacks, push ups, crunches n run thn e basketball team players oso there running thn all call me train wif them i was like WTF train basketball in track pants siao sia thn don give a damn to them n continued wif PT went for break n had debrief during debrief wanted to play whacko thn by e time e IC take e paper already need fall in le thn after falling put went sweettalk alone to buy drink thn home sweet home lol wan do work le so bbb

today had bball trainig n my legs r going to break had to run e width of bball crt sontinously 6 times in 25s think tt e coach is mad tmr having CIP hope it is fun our i will die of boredom there nth say le so bb

today had first official npcc parade n found out i was e only idiot to noe drills thn was like quite sian to relearn things tt i learnt a very long time ago but treating it as refreshment classes lol thn was like rest of whole parade very fun had lots of interaction thn just bcos i noe drill no need make me e timer shout timing halfway voice squeak thn whole squad was laughing like mad thn vvv ps but had fun nth say le gtg bb

tis few days quite sian lots of tests n need cope with cca very tiring its quite stressful to handle 2 ccas n acadimics nth say le just hope tmr math test will pass

yesterday went tiong meet up wif edwin thn went to old place three wait him reach there saw aless n yi jing playing basketball went over joined them awhile ltr edwin came thn he sitting down there do work we playing basketball thn saw nik cycling thn came over to us thn was like having freestyle pk wif nik thn played basketball all e way till 6+ thn went home liao

last friday had basketball training tot my legs were going to break thn run shuttle run thn kena cramp freak thn today had training again run run n run stupid had cramps again thnk my legs hate seeing the coach see le will kena cramp think tt my legs wll go bersek after all e trainings. btw officially a basketball sch team player (hahahahah) but having tournament in march e coach siao bring us out to e outdoor basketball court thn make us train there say improve stamina by double thn we were like training under hot sun without water for nearly 2 hours thn after tt all of us keng stomach pain, head ache, giddiness thn e coach see le buay ta han thn give us water break after tt training more simple thn make us train till past 6 thn we went home liao le
received back our chi test paper so happy kena A1 hahahhahaa

today lessons sucks lit tt time jekyi n dexeter do skit mark n i wanted to film it lucky i no take out phone thn jekyi saw it told ms lim thn mark phone kena confisicated idiotic sia thn after tt during chi class took chi test think im really going to fail it whole class oso no study for it thn fin test le cp told us to stay back till 2.30 talk to us bout wad freak behavioural prob thn down there kao pei 2.30 le every ppl not happy take bag chiong out of class

today lessons were like so freaking boring lo nearly fell asleep after sch went out to eat wif 1C1 ppl at mac hn after chen xi n wendy went first thn i finish le c time was like so freaking worried basketball training nearly started thn on e way back tt timesaw chen xi n wendy lol hey walk like snail so slow thn after tt went into sch wif wenddy she go band thn chen xi went back i was like look at time don care le slowly stroll in reach basketball crt was play for awhile b4 training star thn train 3/4 le stomach felt freaking bloated went toilet vomit think cos at mac ate abit too much thn went home le

sian lo now monday need go NP interview thn now e stupid volleyball ppl n basketball ppl wan me dk wan take which but i most likely will take basketball de lor thn NP confirmed fixed put first choice thn followed by sports or wad ever crap la si pei sian hw no do lazy to chiong sia sian!!!!!

my mum is a total idiotic retard stupid idiot anyhow accuse me of things i no do thn kao pei kao bu when i do thing

today si pei shiok sch ended at 10.25am , during PE dexeter bird hit by e ball while playing captains ball thn after sch went LJS makan wif mark n marcus thn went mark house played thn went home le tmr sian got sports open house hope tt it will be freaking fun

today went for UG open house only loiter round e NPCC booth in ISH n field lol thn was like talking to a sec 2 bout NP thn i mentioned bout my bro thn he was like knew who was my bro lo thn sort of wrote my name on a list thn went ISH played with a pistol with dk wad shit laser n m16 rfle it feels idiotically idiot sian tmr half day thn on fri got sports open house not sure whether tmr wan go out wif mark they all leh

today si pei sian nah bei make us stay for for wad stupid cca open hse for asthetics de oso nth interesting cos not UG or sports wad so find it bo liao any way was like going round n round e sch for diff ccas thn like at band there saw e paper i was e oni ppl to put NPCC as 1 choice (applause for me i rule) thn e chen xi stupid go put NP n band as first choice idiotic thn walk walk walk thn went home le so freaking sian lucky today no heavy hw

si pei sian yesterday come back from camp 1 day of camp knee n elbow all oso kena abrasion thn during e whole camp everyone keep on do pumping very fun n found out my class girls all sua gu no do b4 pumping thn we all down there play play n play pump pump n pump morning 5bx push ups idiotic

tmr going camp liao le thn very sian now in class today keep on tok tok tok hiu lan e teachers during music e stupid teacher keep on kao pei thn we alk softly say we talk loudly thn go make 1 stupid scream like in ochrestra so freaking high pitch whole laugh like mad thn chen xi was like edwin laugh till whole face red too high liao le lol thn went eng thn wad cip breifing go back liao on way back take lift go up mrt station e idiot joel go make some fucking soind thn inside lift lucky no adult but got alot pri sch kids thn they keep staring at hiom thn nth le

tis few days so sian at home keep on do work thn my mum idiotic she not happy go use feather duster whack my leg lucky my leg strong thn not injured if not can kena mc no need go sch nth say le lar bb

last friday went for npcc orientation freaking played lot of games some is related to drill thn got 1 indian guy act like moron whole batch of ppl oso feel lke whacking him thn yestetrday went for basketball orientation change pe attire no do warm up direct do e things le thn now regretting it have muscles ache all over

so sian at home nth do new year oso finally came starting sch in just 2 days
in any case i wish every one a happy new year n all e best in 2010

3 days back come back from thai very fun there but didnt no tat thais were kpop frantics go 1 fair e audio system playing "its you" went by a store selling clothes audio playing "10 out of 10" went by a shop sell tv on all e tv all playing genie mv btw foundtt i went clementi town sec yesterday went to e sch register in e class only got me n ryan from zhangde thn felt freaking weird

few days back went escape thn to wild wild wet again quite nice loh btw 2 day time i would be out of singapore already so anxious about 22dec wonder wad sec sch i would be posted to

today last of time meeting my friends had a party at park infinia was really like damn fun n mad i went wif nik ah ma to help wif stuff thn at three wait le quite smoe time wx thn come shortly after e rest come le they like no c water b4 loh come straight away jump into water thn after tt everyone oso chiong in le but damn tt life guard say wad no wear proper swim wear cnt let us swim nvm thn go eat n bbq finish le went play basketball thn go up his hse play thn went down for dinner thn go home so sad tt it was e last time i m able to c my friends hope to c all of them again except for 2 idiots

today shag like mad got psle result guess wad i didnt expect to get 230 for my aggregate score all my subjects all oso A damn happy sia

sian went to boon lay buy new hp charger thn oso lucky got spare cash go buy new 2GB mermory card thn after tat came home in mrt on e way home got 1 kid think gay or mad de squat down in front of me thn stare at me lucky my stop come le quickly run

sian tis few days no post cos at camp sia so tired, in camp on sat nit bbq till 1am thn morning 5.30am wake up thn do alot of things scolding from CPT is like so common loh thn went chinese garden for 1.5km walk went back sch do area clean finish le go home sleep thn nth more say le

so sad tat today is e graduation day need to leave all my friends maybe get into same sch wif some friends btw today graduation concert e dance quite sastified wif it after tat end le stay in hall kajunior went to dance live ......... thn went tiong sweettalk n went funan wif nik go buy speakers thn go home le sian tmr need go camp but still able to spend time wif friends so sad leave all friends but nonetheless wish all my friends all e best in everything
jus found out 1 vid

tis few days no post cos busy wif e dance n other preparations so sad tmr is e last OFFICIAL day in zhangde pri sch will be leaving it in less thn 2 days will miss all my friends :(:(:(:(:(:( but life everytime oso like tis de there is a start n there is an end hiaz going miss my friends nth post le btw gud luck my friends

today se pei sian sia keep on go hall do nth keep on slack after sch eat in canteen thn go edwin there train but slacking e whole time went up his hse saw (better not say) thn watch vid listen song thn go home le now at home oso nth do de

today si pei jialat arh no CCA go don no wad tiong talk went break take care K2 kids so damn active went break after tt went hall for rehersal tot tt very long thn our turn hw god no ggo up after e 1 tt performing is our turn nearly fainted curtain open song oso no start PA say CD loading idoit thn can le did it trying to b serious but really when i did it really feel like run down n hide dance end e response gt abit diff lucky gt ppl clap no throw things so heng we really going do it n very sad next weeek is last week of sch will miss frwens :(

today went tiong at 12 meet nik n every1 else thn went marina there bowling centre bowl fin 1 game went aracade play till 3+ thn went mac eat there waste alot time chat bout things thn went out le wanted take mrt back but like e past go wrong side lazy walk take bus back reach home need pack alot things haiz sian nth say le

today damn sia morning 8 gt talk by outram abit boring thn after recess haf talk by quweenstown sec quite interesting (actually find it interesting cos surpport bro old sch) thn henderson sec oso give talk damn idiotic loh keep on lecture like siao e teacher thinking we in hss arh dun talk bout such idiots after sch went tiong thinking there will be practise thn kinnard say no wan dun haf le weng ang mc sia if tmr dun come we maybe fired le

today went for BB parade wah go there c strength so little 51 oni thn all p6 no go oni i go oni pang seh me but nvm there slack like siao le got cosent form for p6 retreat thn end parade went eat wif kin chung thn come home le now sian sia maybe ltr going north point walk walk nth say le

today in sch damn sian loh after recess went music room watch 'chipmunks' thn end le go back class thn sort of sit talk to kill time cos sch bout to end le bout 15 min b4 sch end went to toilet there do dance show mrs Johan thn class kpo come out c ford oso e same end tat time ppl clap although song but damn pai sei

today in sch abit sian leh back aching like siao after assembly go music nearly stayed in it for e whole day loh screen movie again but quite funny alothough c until no wan c le thn after sch edwin go buy new speaker cos old de wire break thn go crt prac till bout 3+ or 4 thn aless n kai min come after they come no mood prac play around started to rain run in e rain to bus stop get there whole body drenched thn now at home nth to do

today in sch gt bit sian leh same routine n tat is : play haiz but quite fun de loh after e girls go HPB n after recess went music room thn screen movie don wan watch thn find excuse go out prac dance but oso sort of play play de no serious thn move to com lab still not enough com go out prac thn at least better le after sch went nik hse go there awhile try sing e song thn go down playground wif edwin, nik, weng ang, kinnard n me wait awhile dana, aless, kah wai, kai min, hui yi all go there le thn play truth or dare n blind mice thn mum kao pei thn most early to go back :( thn nth le so bb

today had e dance in front of mrs Johan thn to whole class si pei pai seh still gt ppl take pic or vid thn don care le after sch went home awhile go nik hse take bike cycle to great world there thn back very song can go out again lol nth thing write le ending here bb

today is really siao sia in class no chi lesson song play play play thn after recess went up relieve teacher thn don care her in e end still play like siao 1 hr b4 sch end wanted go mdm tay chi class thn kena chase out by her bcos of edwin go sabo me thn after sch went to practise thn halfway rain thn don care still prac in e rain totally drenched rain get too big alot lightning bo bian go shelter was like very fun play make alot noise resident look out window thn hide nth do le c rain so small lazy dance le go home
THE END

today had CCA again so happy but go there say wan let junior train don let us use then we went up hall play badminton for quite some time le then e teacher come scold us then went down again. 9.15 went lobby meet mrs Johan for e K2 kids thn wait awhile le they come brought them round sch le eat wif them then they go le went canteen break again there dance dance went up class play twister we tortured e gals to like siao then guys turn i most pitiful de kinnard sit on my shoulder nik sit on my injured leg thn still need face han jie e butt :( thn after sch went to practise it again thn they pick up quite fast thn in e end play n play , in end fast go back
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today went BMSS again for SAM fest then saw little bear n joyee then our group e student leader was kinnard bro ok he was quite fun de loh then went to alot station but best think is e wad D & T station went make don no wad wif plastic then had break le went hall haf talk by principal damn boring then went back sch then after sch went to practise like siao then prac end le go cycle gt hole no c cycle into it n fell leg had same type of injury as last time now think both leg will haf same type of scar at same place: knee

yesterday had wad mental wad talk bout entering sec sch haiz very bored there stay in hall nearly whole day bcos of tat then went home le after tat then today at sch was damn fun b4 PE prac e thing then after PE went to chi class then chi class ppl go out then teacher c no ppl say let us go back to own class then went back practise tat thing again then did some other stupid doing tat thing teacher say ppl to little need recriut more ppl then was training e new 2 ppl after sch at edwin hse basketball crt then damn fun down there slack let edwin do e training then went home le now nth asy le bb

today at last had ez link card fixed but before tt went back then went edwin hse e bb crt there prac wanted to wait for nik in e end he say go tuition cnt come me n edwin was like WTF!!! felt like fking him up wasted our time then went home very sian then nth say le bb

today is damn unlucky morning wake up heel pain then later 11 or 12+ tried doing kicks then no c properly go kick into wall leg bleed then numb very e damn pain then now trying to heck care it n heal on its own but cnt really walk properly n cnt turn it wondering how i able to do kicks again

tis few days is totally damn bored nth do oni can stay at home then bro at home oso keep on fight wif him very sian

today was sort of going to tiong then to outram then back home went outram cos ez link spoil then go transitlink office say my card "corrupted" didnt no wad hap to it

today went nik hse again play today especially lot of ppl go sia. song!! play like siao played Wii, xbox then went down played cap ball, cycle then went pg play n went up again play xbox then after awhile go home le

song today was damn high de loh edwin nik willis me cycle hse down there then carpark all e way to pearl centre then sago lane n back tanjong pagar wanted to practise de but in e end went willis hse play PS2
tmr heard nik saying tat will do i again btw ty willis supply me n edwin baike ty

today went labradour for wad nature reserve trail do wad CIP in e end go there walk walk then feed mosqitoes n teachers next time got tis type of CIP of feeding mozzies wif our blood pls count me out btw after tat went jetty we were like siao le screaming our heads off then wai kit took string tie twisties to it then throw into sea wait fish come really doubting it would attract any fishes then go back sch for wad concert so sian de oso no bother care bout it then went back went nik hse again cycle to tiong then went edwin hse basketball cort there n funny part was tat nik was standing on e bike behind me then at first tried going chin up bar then nik pull up but unluckily when nearing e bar bike sort of lost control n banged into e pole then nik flew onto e floor i was so lucky my little brother no kana hit then cycle back to nik hse then went home le

wah yesterday after go bring grand ma to doc then went nik hse play like siao after tat when mx hse down there play ping pong n virus so fun sia then went everton buy drinks after tat went my old hse then neighbour not there went down wif nik then plan go back but rain n nik bike tyre pong cek saw a cardboard took it as an umbrealla then go through e rain to mx hse n was totally drenched after rain stop go back bath n makan then went sleep lol

so damn happy sia psle finally over forever over song now can slack like siao le

7 more days to psle then very stress hoping to get very gud mark or mum n bro sure come chasing me wif chopper tis few day teachers become compassionate give us a bit break
n gud luck to all taking part in psle

wah tis few day no post le cos bro at home today psle listening find quite easy loh teachers tis few day flood us wif work then do n rush like mad to complete sia haiz

tis few day homework fucking hell alot sia mayb should not use f word anyway e chinese teacher think is go mad or screw loose think we so super expect us do e whole ws everyday keep nag bout psle last time find chinese very relax now when wan go chinese class don feel lyk going hate c e teacher then mrs johan oso give so much homework lucky today not alot or will die le

Today went bukit merah sec there for don no wad sciense lessons but in the end go there play only then go e first chemistry class then first table the `teacher' was short then when they talk was like give stupid answers then make them pek chek like siao then go second table `teachers' were joyee n xiao xiong then it was like bloodly freak sia they violent sia but still success in making them pek chek lol then went back sch then got report books n felt like killing ppl deprove like siao lucky i control then after tat went to kfc find xiao xiong n joyee but still went to mac eat ice cream then they were late for netball training but they oso no care de they oso follow us to the carpark there then aless brought them to bus stop then they go back sch le lol
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today got into fight wif en zhi then caught by mr abe then i run inside toilet come out nth happen after sch go playground wif aless,edwin,kai min then play play e kenny n his shit frwens go there e carpark up there play soccer make us wait 1hr at another playground but go there keep on call us go up play then we du lan don go up then down there play chat c video of snail making out n cats making out then c watch 2.35 le then go back sch wait then mr tay bring us go cca branch for wad uniform group outreach programme then come home bath makan then chiong hw oso lazy do finish decided to copy tmr lol

today just went army open hse then my bro no go there work then become our guide we go his station no need queue can direct play wif guns,motars, machine guns and blah blah blah then damn fun sia but found out my aiming fail when using pistol sia haiz should have wore my specs

today follow BB go newater then down there e guide so lame loh oso no care de only down there chat only

haiz today totally ignored by 1 ppl then not happy go bash edwin in e end his shirt tore lols prelims just over tried calculate mark then estimate sure got Bs haiz wan kill my self english keep on deprove(don no got tis word in dictionary) listening get 15/20 tat day sure e ear no go dig so get so low marks tat for now bb

tis few days sure won wan blog wan go study n play games lol

today maths prelim paper paper quite easy sia e second last question abit hard then i guess guess go do then correct sia so happy but e paper 2 is hard like siao sia i all oso any how do de loh haiz hope will still get high A in maths

today in sch so damn funny sia during recess i saw aless n wen xuan was hugging together n they said they were lesbians n were making out me n edwin c le feel like vomiting
today during chinese supplementary e chinese teacher give us listening n make us stay back by 15 min just to do e listening so kao pei sia e teacher
it is only joking tat i said wad aless n wen xuan did but they really did it

few days ago 4get post tat i got a god sis who is in p5 call esther

today lunar 7th month 1st day dont no wad will happen

today is psle chinese oral sia n when i look at e paper i look at the passage quite easy then see e picture got e shock of my life got lots of thing to say but all very hard say so try substitute it wif simple ones hoping not to act smart then say wrong thing and minus marks :) today oso very funny see alot of ppl wear uniform and some is tat i never evre see them wear before e especially aless

Today just received letter from commonwealth sec sch n now very frustrated coz i still cant figure out how to get there

today is my grandma 71st birthday and i'm so happy bout it sia later going to my aunt's house dont no wad will go on there later then upload more fun things

today so funny sia just outside the class Yu long was dunno doing wad and suddenly we started to fight then our class started laughing then when i see mrs johan come then we quickly stop and she oso no see anything

this feel days got feeling that like i am bout to die or something like that coz i feel very the sick eat things oso feel like vomiting sia haiz

today so sian. everyday life the same one nothing interesting